Does it make me less of a man that i want to find a good woman and literally worship her?

Love makes me weak and i find myself wanting to be her slave, when i m with her sexually i feel close to a Goddess, its as close to touching God as i can get usually, i like it when she becomes angry with me and then i fawn over her crying to regain my Goddesses praise, sometimes i m whipped or lead around like a dog and even made to suck her high heels, she is so benevolent like that, i realize i am her play thing, sometimes i pop in my pants at the very though of her, the whole thing is so pleasing to my core, hopefully some day my seed will be used to create new Goddesses from her, she assures me it will happen, i am a good slave.